Now, I've made it a mission to not fall into the offico politico trap, to say nothing but kind things about people, and for the people I have nothing nice for, I say no comment.Ĭ'mon Nyarlatothep, say something mean but funny. Because, when in Rome.you find yourself doing the same things.
But a lot of what gets said is hateful, downright bastardly, and unfortunately I'm ashamed of myself as well.
You have one or two or maybe three people that are actually somewhat close to your level, and gravitiate towards them. Don't you feel inadequate now?Įventually, you get to a point where you just don't give a shit what anybody says or does, and you just do your thing. I'd actually rather be in college, getting solicited by some jack-off on the UMass Socialist Review or harrassed by yet another for a class ring on my way to Molecular Biology class. I'd like to say, this is what I went to college for.īut alas, no. I'd like to say, we are professionals and respect each other's abilites and talents.
I'd like to say that my deaprtment is tight-knit. You give and give, and people take and take and then they fucking take again. It's funny, because something similar happened with a girl just last week. The only thing I'm going to work on seriously is my writing and solo music. I'm still going to jam with these guys, but as far as treating it as something serious, I'm all done. Walking away from something you've put so much into is tough, which probably explains why I'm so fucking tense right now. It sucks, because when you're in a band, there's a certain amount of emotional investment that happens, if you're a real musician that is. I don't care anymore now, because I know now that nothing substantial is ever going to come of this and I'm just going to continue wasting my time. We're still jamming away in the basement, great songs heard only by 5 or 6 people but mostly unfinished because the one person who can sing in Plymouth is a complete cornflake and shows up exactly never, or conveniently enough whenever I'm not around.
I set up two shows (admittedly not the best but shows nonetheless), a website, an email list, and for the couple of times that we've played at the place where we jam I've tried to do a little promotional stuff myself.Īnd for what? Fucking nothing. I've been trying to get this band I'm in off the ground for months now. I am so unbelievably upset right now, I know I shouldn't be, I know I probably don't have any right to be, but I am anyways so fuck you.
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